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This has been a long time comin'...Finally able to put together in movement my feelings. Now, if I could only figure out what it all means. Will mostly likely record it soon so I can watch myself dance and figure out what I am doing right and what I am doing wrong. Eventually I want to teach the whole dance to 4 other dancers, and turn a solo into an echoed flow of movement. Within that movement 5 solos break off and speak as different voices. I am really excited to work on it. Trying hard not to over think my movement by adding too many "tricks" but I definitely want the audience to recognize it as more advanced movement. Will put up the video as soon as I record it.

Lovely...This is the second time I have gotten a phone call for another women asking about her boyfriend and what my status is. These are the things that women need to be aware of when calling my phone to discuss their boyfriend: I can NOT help if ur man talks to me. Most of the time (and when I say most I mean 90%) I have never heard of you. I am not a bad person. Check yo self before u check yo man! If u rn't askin for the ultimate u aint guna it, simple as that. Guys do what they do because they can. If shit was all good between yall, there so be no reason for YOUR MAN to contact and stay in touch WITH ME. Just because you see my name and number in ur man's phone DOES NOT mean we are fucking- despite what people say/believe. I never make things up about a situation or a person, for what? Talking to me in an irrational tone is NOT going to get you anywhere. Remember YOU called me... I could easily walk away from any man right now if I wanted, remember that. Just because y

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An unexpected phone call prompted a heated keyboard because I cant stop typing... it was weird getting a phone call from sum girl I had never heard of (um yea aint no pics of her ANYWHERE) ...informing me that her man had my name and number a few too many times come up in his phone...im thinkin ok and? As she asks me if the two of us are just friends I quickly have a flood of images and texts BOMBARDING my mind that say otherwise. Have been in this situation before, I thought the best thing to do was to lie to her, and deal with him later. She seemed to acknowledge my lie with out any further investigation so I hung up the phone thinking to myself, "if that nigga was here right now I wud beat his ASS" And of coarse now with my numerous dreams about ex's and past hook ups, as well as this phone call I sit here and evilly attack an innocent boy...ok, maybe he isn't innocent or a boy but whatevr. Totally takin my frustration out on him, but I can't help it! I can&#