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So I had to part my sister's hair...u cud say we were desperate b/c every brush/comb we put to her head broke b/c her hair is crazy wild, so we used a heel.

What do you think is the driving force in any human being's mind to continue to do wrong? I am currently questioning my ever so clever mind as she makes me continuously walk down the same path. You people say to learn from your mistakes, and I do. I know what I am doing as I am doing it, so why do I keep doing it? I have recently decided that I do it to see if I can evoke a different response out of either the person or the situation. One day I will learn. So until that day comes I plan on writing about my ever so amazing times with these little boys I have running around after me as I run around and chase other boys. Ah, the circle of life...don't ya love it?

I had to take a moment to myself and sit here and cry I'm still confused about u so u gotta tell me why this stuff we started goin through turned into a situation I'm feelin so mislead by his lies cause it's just infatuation cause all his "amy baby I'm tellin you the truth" was all jus bullshit he hand fed me witha spoon and I spose I was the dumb one who kept takin it all in hoping that one day we could tell people we more than friends but now I'm startin to see what goes on behind closed doors and how he really jus wants me to be his "cute little whore" cause the only time he wants me is real late at night n when i tell him how it hurts me we just get into a fight well I'm sorry daddy, that I'm not enough and I'm sorry daddy that ur life is tough because bein an r&b singer helps open up doors but from day one u know I wasn't with that n wanted more and hell yea u on the radio and mtv jams but so what remember it took forever...

What is it about relationships these days? The word itself results in huge associations with…well death. What is it about the word that freaks people out so much? I mean we have relationships with tons of people, places, and things, so why when it comes to a "boyfriend/girlfriend" situation do people freak out? They choose to run, lie, cheat, steal, and kill? Ok, well, maybe not the last few, but you know what I'm getting at hopefully. So instead people (and mostly I'm referring to men) decide to focus just on the physical aspect of a relationship. Below I have copied word for word what men either have said to me in person, or contact me with via myspace, facebook, or anything...Now the list is endless but here were a few "pickup lines" : “hey i like ur style …i need 2 get to know u...i want u…yo....i like what i see......alot…u wanna know wats up... i diggin ur body really hott....u thick an jucie....mmmm...the this i'll do 2 u as i lick my lips i...